Bing will never understand, how lucky she felt. He caught her full attention, he’s a perfect distraction. He was her sign to the right direction.
Bing will know later she was lost. Lost in her fantasy. Played a little bit too long in her pain. Many said she’s a mashochist for being there all the time. Being in that situation.
Bing has never been in that kind of situation. Bing was a thinker. Bing was a logic creature. On the other hand she was a total dreamer. She had no brain. She followed her so-called-heart-desire.
Bing, maybe, Bing could save her. She didn’t need to be understood. She just needed to walk away from her stressor for this last five months. Five months that she tried to delete from her memory..
Bing was so young but yet so mature. She couldn’t stop smiling when he was around. When he wasn’t, She missed him too much. Scary. She knew she had to manage her emotion.
Bing had history. She knew everyone had history. She had one. She had many. But she refused to know Bing’s. She learned her lesson to put the history behind in order to move forward.
Bing, oh Bing. She hoped you’d understand. That her pain was still there. She’s still in a recovery process. Can’t you see how she ate everything in. How she cried in silent. How she tried to forgive.
Bing was an angel. She was unprepared. It was such a drastic changing. She was amazed of how gentle Bing’s heart. How simple. How honest. How peaceful.. perfect soul inside
Bing was a clown. Bing was a funny dude. Bing was a brilliant master mind. Bing was a tall yet cute duck in her eyes. Bing was perfect for her. But she knew, she’s not. Does she deserve him?
Bing said he loves her. She was surprised. She was speechless. But you couldnt love two people at once, right? So she asked God to help her decide. In God she trusted her heart.
Bing showed pain in his eyes, and it crashed her to her very soul. How could she did that to him? Bing gave her some times to manage her unfinished businesss.
Bing did listen. Bing did watch. Bing did think. Bing did still there. She thanked God. Cause she believed that Bing will do nothing to put her in harm situation. Bing was her last chance to trust.
Bing was different. Pls God oh pls, make this time worthed. Let her faith and her wanting soul be fullfiled. She’s been too tired of playing around. She wanted to settling.
Bing had his dream. This big dream that she wanted so much to support. But she was afraid, can she keep up with him? She worried about tomorrow. She was afraid of 2012. She was afraid of distance.
Bing, if she wanted to change into a better person, you’ll be the reason. So this was she’s been missing all the time. Being wanted, being take care of, being Bing’s.
Bing, thank you. She who once was a flightless bird. Now can fly into the highest mountain.
ps: happy a month, Bing!
mind my grammatical error, 563-toefl-boy.
