Little Girl Diary

Dear diary,

I did kiss him good bye.
So I give myself a reward. A reward for saving my own butt and face.

“Well done, girl.” I said to me. I know, cause this is for the best. Letting go my darkest secret. I have this huge thing inside of me that I cannot control some time, err most of the time I guess. This animal inside, need to be tamed.

I did once.
I did it again. Just now.

Maybe no one understand my stupid mumbling. It just, you know. Me easily get charmed by the worst of all. Am not proud of it. The more I know I have to run as soon as possible from the critical one.. there I am, sittin like a good puppies. With my big eyes, can’t stop staring on my object of affection.

I’m a lover, you know. And proud of it.

I want to shout to the world. I want to tell him that I want him. Damn, I know I want him. I just can’t tell him.
Wish i can wishper to him that we can be together. And we’ll be all rite. Just let me be with you and I will treat you right.

But.. like I told ya, I just sat there. Listened to him. I didn’t understand every single word he told me. I just didn’t get it. So I just sat and listened.. carried away by euphoria inside. But still have no idea of what he’s been thinking. He’s been saying. He’s been.. does he even care of me?

I tried to ask. But it seems like he didn’t get it. He didn’t understand all the signal that I sent. It's sad :(



Simply just because... he barks. I don’t.

Regards,
kitten